omg-janellie asked: Of course you don't want my input because like most guys, you rather not hear the truth. But it's all good, I'm sure you're sick of mine and everyone else's lectures and all, just like I'm pretty tired of hearing you say just how horrible you feel about what you did, even though that's pure bullshit. I'll just leave you alone now.

Don’t you ever compare me to other guys ever again. It’s not bullshit, Janellie. You don’t know me, so don’t sit there and fucking act like you know everything. Okay? I DO feel horrible. Do you think I’m sitting at home, loving my life or something? Do you think that I wanted this all to happen? Don’t you fucking dare think that. I never intended on this happening. I’m not like other guys. I have a fucking heart. I big god damn heart, I have emotions, Janellie. Real, and pure fucking emotions. Nothing I say is bullshit, Especially when it comes to Sessa.. But I don’t need to explain myself to you, do I? No, Because you’re too much of a bitch, and you’re like every other girl out there thinking all guys are the same. So goodbye. And I would very much like for you to leave me alone.

omg-janellie asked: How pathetic. You say you just said that to make them feel better about themselves, yet you weren't planning on really doing any of what you said, so that just really makes me question if you mean anything of what you really say. "I feel like shit," "I fucked up," lord knows how many times I heard all that before. It's funny because I have absolutely no sympathy for you despite the many times you've mentioned how bad you apparently feel over and over again. Just stop trying to get sympathy.

That’s where you’re wrong. I don’t need your fucking sympathy. I just want everyone to know that I’m truly and sincerely sorry for how much of a fucking dick I am. I don’t give a fuck how many times you heard it. You probably heard it from Ryan. And let’s get this straight, I’m NOT Ryan. I never will be. So before you go thinking that I’m looking for sympathy, shut the fuck up, and get the fuck out of my business. I don’t need your input. I know I’m pathetic, and a low-life douche bag, all the shit. But I don’t need, nor want your sympathy. And what I say is true. I’m sorry you’re too much of a bitch to see that. But I actually care about peoples feelings, and right now. I’m a fucking mess. Just, please, Janellie. Leave me alone. I don’t need you making me feel like more shit.

You’re a dude, he’s a dude, she’s a dude, your mom’s a dude. 

(Source: iamthemagicks, via see-gl4ss)

omg-janellie asked: You honestly won't ever find a girl even close to being as wonderful as Sessa. It's disgusting that you'd even consider doing some of the things you planned to do with those girls. What's even more disgusting is that you would hurt Sessa like you did. How could you have said all those things you did to those girls that probably equal nothing but dirt in your life? Your answer is probably "I don't know." I just believe you need to learn how to treat the girl you apparently "love" the right way.

Because I’m fucking dumb, Janellie. I’m not very smart! I know I won’t find a girl like Sessa. She’s the greatest and most wonderful and beautiful girl in this god damn universe. I didn’t plan on doing them, though, to get that straight. I only said it because I was trying to make them feel better about themselves. Did I accomplish anything? Apparently not, because I’m pretty close to losing the only thing that matters to me right now. I ruin everything, Janellie. It’s what I do. I can’t help it. I’m a fuck up, dude. I never do anything right. I can’t even begin to explain to you how much you underestimate my love for Sessa, by the way. She’s my everything, and I would never intentionally hurt her. I just happen to be a bullshit boyfriend, and she deserves better. But somehow she’s still with me. And I’m going to do all I can to keep it that way. Thanks for making me feel like shit. That’s not sarcasm, I really needed that, honestly.

goodgirlsgogabilliam asked: i hate what you did to sessa

Thanks for the reminder.

I do, too.